you can call me a flake if you'd like.

i friggen hate my job lately.
i was supposed to be off at eight tonight and didn't get home til ten.
ugh.
the life of a catastrophe waitress.

in lighter news, my most favorite band of all time has a cover c.d. mixtape that is said to be released in the summer.

happiness. excitement. love.
see here: http://matesofstate.com/splash/

on a side note, i keep singing the lyrics of THIS song everywhere i go. they are not my favorite band by any means. i think i actually like it so much because its' so horrible and hilarious. also it's from 1989, which was the year i was born. profound.

On Friday night of conference weekend, I watched one of my very favorite movies with my sister. This trailer makes it look so creepy. But it really is my favorite, and it's not even creepy. I promise. mmm Edward Norton. Have you seen this movie? If you haven't, please do. Its beautiful. Kerrah will even tell you so.

Check out this awesome picture of the Salt Lake temple that I found. It has always bugged me that the SLC Temple is buried by the big buildings and doesn't poke out from everything else. Too bad I didn't live back then!
I've never been inside this one. I hope that I can attend baptisms this summer there. Because I hope to make "the place" my home for the summer, if all goes as planned. It's a mere dream at the moment. But that is really where I'd like to spend my summertime. we'll see what my brother in law says. cross your fingers for me.

Many of you {a.k.a Kate B & Tim D} have been asking what i'm doing with my life.

I'm just living it. still trying to pass math.(I appreciate prayers)

going to the gym. eating. working. studying. sleeping. pumping up the jam.

But. for those of you that care, I plan on getting my associates degree after this upcoming fall semester, and hope to be leaving for an LDS mission thereafter. Now. plans always change. So please, disregard this as an announcement. Who knows, maybe i'll meet my husband tomorrow. Or perhaps i'll meet him in Salt Lake if i end up moving there for a bit. China would be great. I know it would. I would be doing service, learning, seeing the world and it would be good. BUT: its like that good, better, best talk and a mission is just the best thing I could plan on right now. Truth is, I hardly think of going to China anymore. I think of spreading happiness to the world. I think of telling people about the plan of salvation and that they can live with their families forever. I imagine the look on people's faces as I testify of the pure love of our Savior. And that to me, is more glorious than anything I could do here, or across the sea. Besides marrying my husband of course. He's somewhere, beyond the sea. Or maybe just, around.

I am so thankful for:

1) John Scott Pugh. I dont think he'll ever know how much I truly value his friendship. He is so kind to me and gives me the greatest advice. He always makes me laugh until I cry. He's my home away from home and I appreciate him bucketloads. I love our long phone calls. He is the best, man. AND he smells like a fruitsnack. It's not half priced chicken! It's a cupcake.

2) Miss Erika Lindquist. The silly girl with curly hair from sixth grade that I havent seen in seven years and BOOM! were best friends. We like the same kind of music, and she tells me about her New York adventures, her hasidic jew neighbor and her cute little nanny kid and she is just so funny and brightens my day everyday, all the time. She moves back to St. George May 8th and I cannot cannot wait.

3) Melysa Christensen. Oh wow. This woman is so lovely and classy and full of life. She makes me want to go play and sing in the sunshine because thats just what she is. The sunshine of my life.

4) Miss Danni Springer. Oh hi. We were friends in third grade. Cool. She is the best friend to me and is always just so bubbly, a good listener, and is so wise. She helps me with my science and puts up with my random comments. She is the greatest and I'd like to keep her forever please.

5) Chelsea Bryant. Is kinda like a nightgown. Shes just weird and fantastic and pretty all at the same time. And she talks to me about how life is also all of those things. I love that we can just talk and do nothing and its fun. We did live together for a year afterall. And no matter how weird she can be, I love her to the pluto and back. And that's pretty far I think.

6) Tiffani Herpel. I am quite one hundred percent that we were best friends in heaven, and I know that Heavenly Father placed us perfectly together in this life. I am so flattered when people ask if we're sisters. She has the biggest heart of anyone I know. She is talented with her words and a talented artist. She is a beautiful beautiful person that everyone should know. Because once you know her, you're her friend.

7) Elder Eric Liebhardt. Because its good to know at least one missionary has a crush on you.

8) Samuel Hardman Taylor. Sam wont ever stop being Sam and that is whats truly fantastic about him. He wont change for anyone. And I wouldn't want him to. I like him best as him. He is wacky and wise and silly and I just love him. He was my shoulder to cry on in Cedar and I will always value him as a person and as my friend. He has the most beautiful teeth my eyes have ever seen and the yummiest forehead I have ever kissed.

9) My mom. She is becoming so hip. Like, the hippest mom on the block probably. She texts AND facebooks now. That is proof that miracles happen. I love her to no end. She is the reason I'm alive and the reason I try to be the best I can be. Because thats exactly what she does. And I believe she is the best she can be. Because she just is, the best.

10) My Dad. He's real nice and always asks me how my day went. He calls me punkin and kisses my head. He gives the greatest hugs and lets me drive the car he owns even when I forget to pay him for insurance. I love watching him as a grampa. I know he will be the best gramps to my kids someday. And I cant wait because my kids are gonna be his favorite because I'm his favorite.

11) Kerrah Van Dorn. Man alive this woman has energy and spunk. I still remember crusing around with her in her blue neon while jamming to Ace of Base. And she is still that cool, only cooler. Cause now its a honda pilot loaded with carseats and kids bop. I know her kids are well taken care of because she was the greatest mom to me when I was little. She would tickle my arm and sing "somewhere over the rainbow" to me so I'd fall asleep. That song will always make me think of her.

12) Kurtis Smith. Man. This man. He is so handsome. And so funny. And has the biggest heart I've seen. Well. I havent seen his heart, but he has seen a heart. I could never do what he does and I just look up to him so much. I still remember is Michael Jordan imitations and playing pogs in his room. He will always be the coolest. He'll never let me forget that.

13) Kylee Fackrell. This woman has such a creative brain. She is so artsy fartsy and is always doing what's cool. She is always the first to come up with spectacular ideas and then I swear everyone just copies her. She has the best style and the best hair. And is the best lady. We used to share a bunkbed and she used to save me from the aliens that I thought were coming to get me.

14) My middle name. Because no one can ever guess it and it makes me laugh. And I dont know anyone else that has it. So choice!

15) Mayer Hawthorne. I think he's the only white guy on earth that has as much soul as Stevie Wonder. Wow. He is such a handsome nerd. I might just be in love. Handsome nerds are my favorite. Could it be that his love was meant for me? Maybe so, Maybe no. Dont be scurred. SO GOOD.

16) Broken Bells. Why did these two fantastics never collide before? I'm so glad they decided to. They are happiness and give me and my car the chills.

17) Dent May. Serenade me with your Ukulele just one more time.

18) Erin Howard. She always makes me feel good about myself no matter what. She is a truly talented piano player. I'm so happy for our closeness and since the wreck I know more what it means to have her in my life. Life is so fragile and we are truly blessed souls to still be bee boppin around. She is a rare and true gem that I will keep in my treasure chest for a long long time.

19) Missionary Letters. I check my mailbox everyday for mail from my missionaries.
I. LOVE. MAIL. It makes me soar.

20) Benjamin Stratford. Because he just has the prettiest sparkliest eyes and I think it's just cause he loves Jesus so much. He used to have Austrailia on the back of his neck. Cool. He is the nicest and weirdest and i just like him a lot. Work is always better when he's around.

21) The change of plans. Who needs them anyways? They never turn out how you plan.

22) My new calling. I almost just called it a cooling. Because I have the coolest calling ever. Ward Photographer. How hip is that?

23) The knowledge that I can be with my family forever. Nothing makes me happier than that.

24) Grandma Smith. Man alive, she not only made the best licorice caramels around just for me; but she gave the greatest hugs. The kind you could sink into like a waterbed. And they always smelled the same. Grandma smelled like eternity before she even got to heaven. And I'm sure shes just dancin' up there with Clark Gable like Tif said. Watching over me all the days and being sweet like always.

25) Saying a prayer and having the answer you needed come directly to you through a scripture. Like it was written to and for you. How beautiful is that?

26) 25 main cupcakes with friends after baptisms at the temple. bliss.

27) tree blossoms.

28) Courtney Nicholls. She is the daintiest, cleverest cutie I ever talked to. She is just the cutest. And she is an artist. Filling the world with color again just like color TV. Cute seems like not enough of a word for her. But thats just what she is. CUTE. Adorable? ah! I could just squeeze her. But then she might break. So i wont.

29) I'll leave 29 for you. I am thankful for you. If you read this, know that I'm thankful that you care enough about me to read my blabby blurbbing blebs.

30) LOVE. It's magic and makes the world go round.
Along with gravitational physics and myself. Courtney even said.

not much.

I continue to produce custom built goodness:

Families are still forever.

I still have the best friends in the world.

Still deciding if I want to be:

or whether i should go on an adventure to teach some little asian nuggets english:

I still dont understand math.

right now, I would really like one of these.

and as for tonight, i'm seeing this:

english is boring.

Well, this is great.

When I got to Chelsea's apartment she was still wearing her nightgown. Well, it was really more of a Mumu, but it was beautiful. After some mumbling, we headed to the gym. We friggin' jump roped, did sit ups with weight balls on those big bouncy balls, went on the eliptical for four miles, and then we went on the weight machines. We are so fit. Then. We went to her apartment and changed into our temple attire and cruised to the templar. They first told us that it'd be an hour wait, but momentarily informed us that it would instead be fifteen minutes to get us in. So choice! We got confirmed and baptized, dip dip dip dip dip. I think the first person i was confirmed for didnt accept it. That's never happened to me before, it was like when you're falling in a dream and then you jump and wake up. Like there was some sort of resistance. Weird. Anyways, the spirit was luckily dense for the other ones. After being at the temple for at least an hour an a half we were starved. We headed to jimmy jimmy jimmy johns where i engulfed a #6 vegetarian, a cookie, and a coke. AND THEN. We were still hungry so we split a slim four with cheese and mayo. Hope it didn't defeat our gym purposes. When I was pulling out of Jimmy Johns, I thought that I ran it over. It is a tiny store afterall. But luckily it was just a red little pole. Hopefully my parents don't read this soon, but if they do they'll be pleased with the beauty of the scratch. It's one of the best I've seen. After shrugging my shoulders, I decided I relly needed a mumu like Chelsea's. So we went to Kmart and I bought one for $7. Deal! We decided Kmart was too creepy for our liking, and their make up was overpriced, so we then ventured to Wal Mart. We bought awesome things. Namely: herbal essences shampoo and conditioner, a cover stick, lady things, yarn (for booties), food, facewash and Vampire Weekends new cd CONTRA. When we were in the food section I kept dancing to the song "Diplomat's Son" because I had it in my head and I was excited to listen to it. People kept shaking their heads at me because i was dancing all through the aisles while Chelsea gathered some grocery goods. When we were in the produce section, she asked me how to get her little onion bag apart. (you know the little thin clear ones provided for fruits and veggies that are always static-ee?) so i grabbed it and in my effort to shake it open, my phone catapulted across the floor. "SHIII" said some weirdie man that was checking out my dance moves earlier. Lets just say it was quite the scene. My cute little green re-claim shot up in the air in slow motion and did a perfect front flip. I was instantly laughing, but shrugging my shoulders and saying "I drop it daily, notta problem." Guys. My last phone lasted me three years. But now I'm depressed. The keys will light up and i can call people and answer phone calls. But the screen doesnt work at all, and its not even cracked. I was depressed for quite some time. I came home and my parents told me that I sent and recieved 5,579 text messages in the last 25 days. Mayhaps I just need a break from texting? I promise I do other things, like going to school and work. I just like socializing, okay? Anyways, broken electronics wont get me down. I came home before nine o' clock tonight AND last night. And it's the weekend! Does this mean I'm getting old? Or am I just sleepy from the Pheonix concert a few nights back? (which by the way-was soo great.) Anyhew, I modeled my new mumu for my mom. She was so jealous. I also dance partied to CONTRA in it. I gave her a free performance. She could hardly look at me.

I. LOVE. SAM.

She loves to take pictures and talk about human waste, her Grandma, her future husband, her bowel movements, and Jesus.

It's currently 1:37 a.m.

and i just submitted an assignment to my science teacher.
oh, school.
it is really going great.
I'm loving this semester so far.
It's supposed to rain everyday this week.
I kinda love it. It reminds me of Europe even though it makes it feel late and early all at the same time.
I must say, I abandoned the blahg for quite some time. Starting school does that to you.
I feel as though I'm too late to post about my birthday, and the holidays, and i dont really make new years resolutions because they just break. But i make goals. I am always making goals. And hey, it's still January, right? I'm not even late. Looking back on 2009, I thought I had experienced an uneventful year with no real milestones. But after pondering upon the subject, here's what I came up with. Enjoi.

IN 2009:
* I completed my first year of college @ SUU. And passed ALL of my classes.
* I moved home to Dixie, and completed my second fall semester of College. I passed all of my classes, minus one.
* I survived my first real surgery.
* I survived a roll over car wreck.
* I didn't kiss any men on the lips, but I kissed 2 on the forehead.
*I had the best birthday. ever. I'm not even exaggerating. It is really the best I have had in all of my 20 years.
*I drove to provo for the 1st time by myself.
* My hair grew longer.
* I more than doubled the amount of nuggie poos in my life. I am the proud owner or four neices and three nephews. Good work with the reproduction brother and sisters!
* I sent out at least 12 missionaries. Most girls only send out one :D

As for my goals thus far.

*pass math.
*gym class at least twice a week.
*read the book of mormon again.
*travel to China.
*kiss a boy on the lips, instead of the forehead.
*persuade sister to have another baby kid.
*dont get in any car wrecks.(knock on wood)
*dont have to have surgery again.
*have way good hair.

Welp, maybe once the laptop is done having a viral infection I'll add pictures to this post.
until then, x.0.