Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Ladies and Gentlemen:

For those of you who thought the future had no soul, I give you: Mayer Hawthorne.

(thanks for the stellarfantastic birthday mix Tif)

And have you heard THIS?!

Oh, and my birthday festivity pictures will be posted shortly.
It's the last week of school, sorry for the delays.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

There's a cupcake wrapper on my CIS book.

I've been way too good at ignoring the class,and now it's piled up. I'm sorry for blogging so much about it, but the blahg is usually my escape from so. HOWEVER: Please pray that I pass CIS! I dont want to retake it or think about it ever again. Sarai was right. That class really does make you dumber. I'm home. Thank heavens. The lab scares me, even though it has those yellow vested angels that help you.

It turns out my brother and I attend the same school. Who would've known? I was running frantically to the crosswalk as it blurted out: (in a creepy voice, I might add) "WALK SIGN IS, ON!" Keep in mind that I only had seven seconds to run across the street before I got ran over. Then I hear a: "KREESTA!" (in a creepy Kurtis voice, i might add) And sure enough, my brother is waving out of his car window making a little poo smile. I returned the generous greeting. Once I was safely across the street, he yelled my name again as he passed: "KREESTA!" I called him up and asked what he was doing and he said he'd see me in a second. I was walking in the parking lot and then i heard him yelling my name again. Oh boy. My brother is great. It turns out he was headed to anatomy, so I walked him there. He convinced me to go talk to an advisor, which wasn't that helpful; but i did find out that I'll probably have my associates after Summer semester. Which is great because thats right before I'd leave for China if I end up going. However, if I end up being an EFY counselor, then I'll just get my associates after China? I'm not really in a hurry, so.

Yip Yip!

My friends and I have started a fantastic tradition of eating at Judds for lunch every Monday at noon. There's not enough room for us in there, so we usually take our soup and breadsticks over to the park and eat it. Not yesterday. For some suspicious reason, Judd's was closed. We all said that it was because they knew we were coming, but anyhow, it has become such a big deal that we had to make a sign to tell people that Judd's Monday was moved to 25 main. I seriously never have bad Mondays anymore. All the above photographs are from such festivities.

Also! Fantastic news!
The little hellions that i nanny for's mom informed me today that she isn't teaching next semester! Which means I wont be nannying next semester! Awesome. Goodbye cooking Macaroni and Cheese every Tuesday. Goodbye whiny leetle sweethearts. You really are so cute. But I am so glad that our time together has come to an end. Thank you for teaching me lots and lots of patience. You guys are great birth control. And you really should start believing in Santa.

I'm having a Birthday shindig on Friday! And you're invited. We're going to Krave and then we're going see Fantastic Mr. Fox. Come on guys! Two decades is kind of a big deal.

I dont have much to say about Thanksgiving, besides that it was weird. We ate our feast at the alumni house in Cedar, and none of my siblings were there. But it was okay because i got to see them that weekend because it was my nieces blessing. I'm currently wearing lola wear cause my feet were freezing, and my shirt that says: "I'm a Big Wheel in the Lunt Line". Hand-crocheted booties from my great auntie lola and a t-shirt that my grams gave me. So much for washing my hair today. I look like a hobo. I'm also drinking eggnogg and coke, a brother-in-law-learned tradition. This time we didn't have coke, so i substituted some Diet Pepsi with lime. It's kind of an interesting combo, but it cured the craving. I even listened to Amy Grant Christmas nonstop today. I dont have lots of shopping done. And although I went the night of Thanksgiving AND on Black Friday, it doesnt seem a whole lot like Christmas yet. Maybe it's because I spent Saturday morning barfing? But really,wasn't it just New Years?

I know that my sisters and Sam and Tif and everyone likes my hair short, but. It just started being long! And that's how it's gonna stay. Sorry guys, but it is mine. ALSO. I cut my own bangs. And i think they're a little too short, cause Kerrah and my mom were laughing at them like i was a three year old that had cut her own hair. I felt stylish on day one of my straight bangs, but now I feel embarrassed. So, I've been pining them back lately.

Also, I think its funny but kind of confusing when you poo and then you look in the toilet and theres nothing there.

And, I think that's it.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

mint chocolate chip ice cream.

My friend made this post about me on his blog.
It's full of things I've said to him.
And it's fantastic.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

I will.

be two decades old in one month.

and I dont even know what to do for festivites.

have everyone meet at twenty five main for cupcakes?

suggestions are welcome.

please and thanks.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

On a Sunday.

I was probably four back then. When I gave you the full name of
Rosey Tiger Meowers Smith
And now, I'm almost twenty.
So you were about... 16 years old?
You lived quite the life.

A good long life.
I'm sure you're happier now.

"Oh, she really was the greatest cat"
-Izac Van Dorn

"She used to be so cute. Lets remember her like that. She was so nice too."
-Kerrah Van Dorn

Sorry for torturing you and dressing you in doll clothes and sticking you in my tricycle basket. I only stuck those potato bugs in your mouth because I thought you liked potatoes.

Izac's right. You really were the greatest cat. Thanks for being my friend and stuff.

I love you Rosey.
See you soon.
x 0 x o

Friday, October 30, 2009



Thursday, October 29, 2009

alright guys.

i just got back from this little run/jaunt that i went on.
i know what queen was talking about when they wrote the lyrics "cool cool sweat".
okay, maybe they meant something different. either way, it's
I wanted to wear my beanie with the little guy on top, i'm so glad i didn't.
I thought my lungs were going to explode.
is my face is red from being hot or from thawing out from the cold?
I dont know which one it is.
Its obviously been awhile.

i have come to the conclusion that it is finally winter in st. george. the esteegee only has two seasons. summer or winter. i did see some colorful leaves and some berries though.
which made my heart happy.

I got a new phone. It's green and looks like this: sometimes when i text on the tiny keyboard i type justy instead of just. And add other random letters to words. How embarrassing. I miss my crazy vibrating T9 phone. It had been trusty since my junior year. It was sad to say goodbye. Hope me and the reclaim are friends soon.

I had a twitter account for about twenty minutes today. Then I decided it was dumb and my phone wouldnt work with it. So, after my run, i deleted it.
So much for being hip.

I got a c on my math test. I know, it isn't great, but it's a whole lot better than I thought I'd do. And even though I did better on my last one, I didn't fail. Yip yip!
Prayers are answered.

I have so many missionaries to reply to. They're probably the only men I should be worrying about currently. I would say that nothing is happening but a lot of first dates; However, the new kid in my choir class could very well be my husband. He looks sort of like my former boyfriend, Zac. Only he's shorter and tanner and kind of reminds me of my cousin Harrison. Everyone was dressed up for halloween today, and he was wearing a suit. When people asked him why he said that he is the youngest new temple worker. Handsome.
Maybe he'll take me there someday.

I graduated.I now only have two new bras that fit properly. WOOT? Hopefully my legs will be the next thing to grow.

I owe my dad $279.11 so much for going to China.

I want to read the Book of Mormon again.

Where the Wild Things Are. Liked it. Didn't love it. But I loved the music.Good job Karen O.

There are just a few CD's that I would like to order/purchase.
-Kings of Convenience
-Nearer (hymns)
-Zee Avi
-Where the Wild Things Are soundtrack?
-Caroline Smith and the good night sleeps
-Lucy Michelle and the velvet lapelles
-She and Him
-Grizzly Bear
-Vampire Weekends new one?
This is the new music in my life.
Maybe I should just buy an expensive Itunes card so i can be choosy.

speaking of music. I am so mad. Regina Spektor is going to be in Salt Lake next weekend!!! Kids, do you know how long I've wanted to see Regina live? But Tif cant go that weekend and Sarai is flying to somewhere. Who wants to go with me? I think my sister does. But i have to get work off. ASAP. It will be a dream come true if I can make this happen.

I should have done CIS most of today. Instead i did whatever I want. One of those things was making my blahg cuter. I hope you like it cuter. I like things that are cute. Anyways, my deadline is at eleven but I dont plan on making it and I dont even care cause my friend said that he was late like everytime but once and he got a B+.
So, thats what I'm aiming for.

I didn't go to the elementary today. My lack of being a morning person is making me worried that I might not make it as a teacher. Mrs. Simkins gave me a hard time.
I guess there's always afternoon kindergarten.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

I suppose you've been wondering what I've been up to.

I guess you'll just have to wait.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

so great.

!) I am greatful that I went to school today.
@) I am greatful that I live in a house that is a home.
#) I am greatful that I helped my mom make gyro chicken pita things tonight. Even though she got mad at me, they turned out really good.
$) I am greatful that my boss took the time to talk to me about being overwhelmed about school and lowering my work hours.
%) I am greatful that I have a job.
^) I am greatful that I went to 25 main and the DI with the truest bloods i know, and Bryan.
&) I am greatful that I get to drive the car I drive.
*) I am greatful that I have such a good family.
() I am greatful that I live at home.
!)) I am greatful that I live in St. George. Its so pretty here.
!!) I am so greatful that its finally feeling like falltime in the esteegee.
!@) I am so greatful that Sarai took the time to come to the tutoring center today and help me with my math. We got four assignments done in like 3 hours. Not bad. Not bad at all.
!#) I am greatful that I got to spend most of yesterday with Mckenna and Adam stinking and eating weird things in Adam's apartment. Oh, and studying for family relations.
!$) I am greatful I saw Ben Stratford today. It was like he was invisible. I was leaving Suzie a message and looking at some photographs on the eccles wall and BAM! I turn around and there he is. "hello benjamin! feed me a quesadilla. or just walk and talk with me, thats cool too."
!*) I am greatful that I got to meet Chad at the tutoring center today. He was doing trigonometry, and I told him to keep making pies and square rooting them. And I think he might be my husband, but I dont know yet.
!() I am greatful that i got 99% on my last family relations test. And that i felt really good about todays.
@)) I am so greatful I finally let my pride go and went to talk to my math teacher. Thanks John.
@!) I am so greatful that I drove to Cedar on Sunday for Eric's farewell. I'm so glad that I made it safely to and from. It was so good to see everyone. I miss my cedar friends.
@@) I am greatful for Chelsea and Sam's undying friendship.
@#) I am greatful for Elder Eric Liebhardt.
@$) I am greatful for the yucky stuff. cause it makes you see the pretty stuff, and appreciate it even more.
@%) I am greatful for all the missionary letters I have that I need to reply to.
@^) I am greatful that I went to choir for a little bit today. I seriously love my choir teacher.
@&) I am so greatful that I have the gospel in my life.
@*) I am greatful for the knowledge that I am exactly where I need to be right now.
@() I am greatful for good friends to talk to.
#)) I am greaful that I wont ever have to take anatomy, because I sure dont want to.
#!) I am greatful for good parents. I think they might want me to move out again and be a big kid, but thats just too bad for now. Also, they really dont want me to move out i dont think. Then I'll cost even more money. Billions.
#@) I am greatful that I'm stepping back and thinking about my decision to got to China next year. It would be an adventure, I'm sure. And I'm all signed up. But I need to make sure that's where I need to be next year.
##) I am greatful for the money that i have. Now, its sure not a lot. But I am thankful for it.
#$) I am greatful for realizing that things aren't always as they seem.
#%) I am greatful that I sat on the lawn today and talked to Kristi Merril. And that Maddi Brown was on her way to anatomy and that she said a quick hello.
#^) I am thankful for my nanny children. They're great when they arent naughty.
37) I am so greatful for this number. It's been haunting my life so much lately. Which means good things because it is my most luckiest, favoritist number of all times.
#*) I am thankful for letting go.
#() I am thankful for this keyboard I am typing upon. I love typing.
$)) I am greatful for Miss Sarah Bibb.
$!) I am greatful for My dad just asking me to turn off the lights before I go to bed. I yelled: "love you!" But I think he was already up the stairs before he heard me.
$@) I am thankful for breathing.
$#) I am thankful for walking. I always park far away. Brian asked me why I parked so far away today and i told him it's because I like walking. And well, cause Sarai was at the academy so I just walked to 25 main. But still. The point is is that I really like to walk. And I'm thankful for being physically able to.
$$) I am thankful for writing. I dont know what I would do if i couldnt write. Probably just, DIE.
$%) I am thankful for singing. I love love love love love to sing. sing sing.
$^) I am thankful that my hair is getting a little bit longer finally.
$&) I am thankful that I'm ready to stop so I can do some homework and mostly because I dont want to get all the way to fifty, because I dont like fives.
$*) I am thankful for the opportunities that I have. I should take them more.

$() I am thankful for the thought of something new. (not to purchase)


tomorrow, is new.
yesterday is old news.

and today?

is what i've got.

%)) I am greatful that when someone asked me 'how I it went' in a text today, I replied: "SO GREAT"

you know what else? thats fifty. but you cant tell cause i purposely used symbols.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

a good thing.

I am listening to Mozart.
Humm........I wonder if listening to classical music will make me more classy.

I really like my packpack. It makes me feel like a little kid again.
I'm so glad tomorrows Thursday.
I'm going to ride my bike to the Elementary.
I'm going to take my CIS test.
I'm going to do my four Math assignments.

I have tomorrow off of work.

and its such a good thing.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009


parking on dixie campus= very scarce.

yoga class= early. but good.

the three wakefeilds that I nanny for? SO cute. and SO crazy.

warning about registration on the second day of school= no good.

learning about happiness in family relations=interesting and lovely.

meeting kind library boy=way good!

weird institute teacher=not good.

in and out with tif for lunch=good.

math= okay.

math book and family relations book= coming soon. (i hope)

beholding magic tonight=good.

date with kind library boy friday night= YES!

today better than yesterday? YES.

new institute teacher? YES. please and thanks.

texts from my korean? good.

closing for the first time at work tomorrow? good/scary

college funds? could be anywhere right now.

me? content and :D

the average of my experience at DSC so far? GOOD.

my room? calling my name to come clean it.

mailbox? really wants a missionary reply.
I sent out eight. We'll see who wins.

thee, end.

Friday, August 7, 2009

the three fackrell girls.

so pretty. so loving. and so lovely.
seven babies now! Thats so many babies!
Auri already looks older, maybe its the pigtail party on her head, but.
I am the aunt of seven.
I am so lucky.
I am part of some good lookings.
I love you baby Eden. Let's meet real soon, in real life.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

California Adventures.

me and the prego.
nuggie poo.

and there was a lizard in my sisters kitchen light?

Woot Fireworks! My dad's calf muscle looks way good in this one.
she loves fireworks.

"Come and open up your, folding chair, next to me.

My feet are buried in the sand, and theres a breeze.

There's a shadow, you can see my eyes.
And the sea is just a wetter version of the skies."

so. me and my dad decided to go on a walk, and then there were a ka jillion dogs!
I spot fourteen in this picture alone. Can you find them?

San Diego in the sky.

I love my mom.

I also love my dad.

visited the castle.
rocked some coasters at knotts berry.

Our Favorite.
beach babes. including the one on the inside.

Monday, July 20, 2009


dear chinese children,

i am signed up. and i am coming. next year.

dear parents,

thanks for the good lunch. dont be scared for me to go to china.

dear sister,

have your baby. stop talking me out of china.

dear papa kay,

please fill out a reference form.

dear bishop radmall,

please fill out the other reference form.

dear cousin chelsea,

i will be at your house tonight. not to babysit, but to sit.


Saturday, July 18, 2009


I lay here thinking of the days that have passed me by. The days when I did nothing when I could have been learning, creating, doing.

I will have no more of these days.
I hate it when the summer gets the best of you.
It will never get me again.
I’m running, and I know tai bo.
I’m always thinking of what I want, when, in the end it will be what I need and I’ll realized its what I wanted in the first place.
So she says.

Like a wise jimmy johns sign once told me…
“If you do the things you need to do when you need to do them.
You can do the things you want to do when you want to do them”

I NEED to:

-because I WANT to teach leetle squinty eyed kiddos some English, and while I’m at it, I think I’ll walk on the great wall of China for a good time. I will be signed up to do so by July 30th, 2009. I NEED to get my letter of recommendation from my Bishop. Don’t let me forget.

-specifically to mark off after I have done so. Starting with July. I’ve been doing better. Why? Because reading scriptures is the BOM! Get it? Ha. So funny. Plus it brings much goodness and happiness and blessings and knowledge. Which are all things that I am in need of, always.

-because I want to keep ALL of the commandments. This ones been hard lately not because of me wanting to keep my money, but because I’ve had to wait for my records to transfer from Cedar. PLUS, I haven’t really been ‘in’ a ward because of attending farewells and such. Look at me and my excuses. Basically, I have a stack of money, and envelope with my bishop’s name on it, and transferring records. So, I just need to give the envelope to him and then it’ll all be good.

I can do this after I pay my stash. I plan on attending regularly (weekly) like I used to before moving to Cedar, because the temple is so full of goodness, happiness, and blessings. Again, I love and need all of those things.

Because even though he knows what I NEED more than I do, I just really enjoy talking to that guy. He loves me. And I owe him a daily visit to let him know how thankful I am to be so blessed with his blessings. I really have such a great life, and I should never set aside the privilege I have to talk to my Father in Heaven.

-because I don’t like it when my mom complains about it. And it just looks better clean anyways.

-that’s right. There’s more than one that I’m waiting for, probably even more than these. But these are the lucky kids on the list, that need a letter from me.
-Elder Rowley
-Elder Jackson
-Sister Garcia
-Elder Durham
-Elder Stanley
-Elder A. Olsen
and quite possibly even Elder Stucki and Elder Neilsen, if they’re as lucky as the others….J

Because its never too late to say thanks.
-Chelsea, Kim, Yujin, Grams, Sam, Tif, Sarai

9)Make my dad do FAFSA with me.
-because I want to go to school and I’d rather have the government pay for it than he and I.

10)Contact and invite more people to to stuff. Because I’m never the planner and I love making new friends and meeting new peeps.

11) COOK REALLY GOOD DINNERS. With kenna. Once a week.
-because it will totally make my husband love me more. And I want my children to enjoy good home cooked meals made by their mother. And I best start practicing now. I’m basically a cooking retard. There is so much room to improve this skill of mine.

-usually, I only write poems and thoughts and fireside/church things in my journal. I usually keep track of what I do daily in my planner. But I’ve decided to switch things up. I have a way too good of a life to not write down what happens everyday in my life. And I don’t want to forget the moments and memories I am currently having and making. They are so great. And will be even greater to look back upon. (linds han and tif inspired me to do this one, I’ve done pretty good so far!)

and those things that I need? Will be exactly what I want, because I needed them.

Monday, July 13, 2009

I just wanted you to know.

that today was a really good one.

probably way too much fun for a sabbath day.

and that i need to download pictures.
I've been having lots of good times.
so there will be more to come, soon.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009


i think she made this herself. it almost ruins the song. but oh my. i cant stop listening to this one. in my car. dance dancing like a robot. sing singing. in my car. in the shower.

love me some regina.

and this.

hopefully with Sarai and CJ.

and arcade fire too?

these people pick the right bands for their movie trailors.

i will see this film.

and even "us" by regina spektor? and zoey? aw, bliss.

love it. cant wait.

Monday, June 29, 2009

Life Lately.

china china, run, work, china china boom boom, drive and sing, ride your bike, visit brother boom boom, china china. weeo! work. sleep. wake up wake up! summer summer, work. almost fall. sunny good.

this world is our play thing. hum on himi it!

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Happiest Date of Birth, you Sparkley Raptor-head, Baby-belly!

Oh, Seester. Look how cool we used to be. Now we're getting so old. 24, right? I sure hope so. And you almost have two kids? Weird. Anyways, I hope your day is like a merry go round with cotton candy and a yellow balloon at the end. And maybe a taco time hat as well. Also I'm sorry that your birthday fell on a Sunday this year. It's sometimes unfortunate when that happens. Sorry that I always wanted to copy you when I was little, its just because you're so cool.
"Happiest date of birth sister dear,happiness will come to you all year, if i had a wish then it would be, a happy happy birthday to you from me!"
that was a song. that i just sang. for you. yep.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Love For Us.

last summer, i was sitting in Brother Bradley Buhanan's sunday school lesson. I raised my hand and tried to express the comment i wanted to state, but couldn't really find the words. Here's what I would have said if i had been as wise. Mine was more so just a jumble of words that went something like "Heavenly Father loved us so much, and had the power to save Christ from the atonement, but thought of his love for us before saving his favorite son."


"In that hour I think I can see our dear Father behind the veil looking upon these dying struggles until even he could not endure it any longer; and, like the mother who bids farewell to her dying child, has to be taken out of the room, so as not to look upon the last struggles, so he bowed his head, and hid in some part of his universe, his great heart almost breaking for the love that he had for his Son. Oh, in that moment when he might have saved his Son, I thank him and praise him that he did not fail us, for he had not only the love of his Son in mind, but he also had LOVE FOR US. I rejoice that he did not interfere, and that his love for us made it possible for him to endure to look upon the sufferings of his Son and give him finally to us, our Savior and our Redeemer. Without him, without his sacrifice, we would have remained, and we would never have come glorified into his presence. And so this is what it cost, in part, for our Father in Heaven to give the gift of his Son unto men"

-Melvin J. Ballard, "Sermons and Missionary Services of Melvin Joseph Ballard", comp. Bryant S. Hinckley [Salt Lake City: Deseret Book Co., 1949], pp 153-55

Little Pieces.

Little tiny pieces.
all jumbled in a pile.
one is a heart for love.
its chucked a million miles.
its battered, torn and trampled,
but still has a real big smile.

another is a little cube,
all perfect on the sides.
not perfect from the in,
but in her you confide.
she works and works and works and works,
and she will find the him.
she's got the beauty and the faith,
and she will surely win.

one is a never ending circle.
spinning round and round.
always coming back and forth,l
ike a swing.
but hardly makes a sound.
soon it will have adventures,
and roll into the one.
but for now it simply swings,
and pokes around at fun.

another is a twisted sunny triangle.
with an angle lost.
but soon it will be replaced.
soon it will be forgot.
for now she sings sweet happiness,
because it's hers to own.
shes twisted and she's tossled,
but never losing hope.

and there's other new ones too,
all round and square and bent.
these random broken pieces,
were surely heaven sent.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

I am buying this!

When it comes out.
On June 23rd!
Yay for more regina goodness!

Friday, June 12, 2009

Thursday, June 11, 2009

sometimes, your grams turns 80 years old.

Does your granny happily beat the crap out of a pinata? Mine does.


If you haven't seen it, please do. It might be my favorite Pixar movie made so far. Actually, I'm pretty sure that it is. It's heartwarming, and YOU need to watch it.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Good days in the Esteegee.

just another good picture of me and the nuggetcakes.
someone should probably teach me to post my pictures and make them look normal.
until then, they'll be jumbled like this. but this is a good jumble, i'd say.
happy summer.